Packing, Leaving, Writing…and a Little Crying

My flight leaves in 4 hours.

I don’t even think I’ve processed that statement yet.

I’m writing this, or attempting to write this since the words won’t seem to come, with a three-fold purpose:

1. For everyone who doesn’t check Facebook: I won’t have a phone or internet for the next 10 days or so. Not just that I won’t be checking them, I literally will not have them. So if you want to get in touch with me, try my parents or just wait until the 23rd. I’ll share everything when I get back. Maybe not everything but you know. Speaking of sharing. . .

2. For everyone who wants to know all about life at Wheaton and how I’m doing: I plan on keeping up this blog instead of sending mass emails or calling every person who asks. Key word being, of course, planning. I hope that I can share encouraging but my real life to everyone who is earnestly loving and praying for me. The email subscription thing on the sidebar is a great way to do that, since I won’t post every entry to Facebook. It is my desire to improve my connectedness and loyalty in college with frequent calls, texts, emails, and blog updates, but we’ll see. . .

3. For everyone who has loved me so well: please know how grateful and humbled I am. I can’t wait for the Lord to show each of you in Heaven the specific things you’ve said and done that impacted me. No one knows all the things I hold onto – the times people pray for me, what they say about me, the wise counsel they give me. These past 18 years, more specifically the past 3 1/2 have challenged me and grown me in ways I never could have expected. And beyond learning, I never expected to have as much fun as I have. My life has been a testimony of the love and grace of God, but it has also been a picture of His joy. And if you’ve ever been intentional with me, loved me, prayed for me, encouraged me, you have been invaluable as a conduit for the Lord’s blessing. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

If you want to know how I’m feeling right now, I feel like a smoothie. It’s like someone took every emotion a person can have and has thrown them all into a blender and sometime between last night and this morning turned the intense mixing on. I am more excited than I’ve ever been about college. I am so confident in the work of the Lord in me and at Wheaton. I know that I know it is where I am supposed to be and Jesus will be faithful in that. I am a little sad about leaving home, a little nervous about meeting new people, a little contemplative about everything people have said to me this past week, very grateful, overwhelmingly blessed, a little anxious about seeing what this new season holds. . .I’m feeling everything.

And you know what? It’s good.


















3 Responses to Packing, Leaving, Writing…and a Little Crying

  1. How exciting for you, Maddie. We will keep you in our prayers as you start this new journey with our Lord. Many blessings to you.
    We love you much,
    Paul, Christina and Myles

  2. Crying my eyes out!!! Where does the time go? Your writing is beautiful. Your family is amazing. I’m so excited for you. Dream big:) Praying for you(and for your precious mama who I know will miss you every day)Be Blessed in all your comings and goings. “Commit your work unto Him and He will cause your thoughts, ideas, and plans to align with His will so they will be established and you will have GREAT success!!! Much love from the Castles’