My flight leaves in 4 hours.
I don’t even think I’ve processed that statement yet.
I’m writing this, or attempting to write this since the words won’t seem to come, with a three-fold purpose:
1. For everyone who doesn’t check Facebook: I won’t have a phone or internet for the next 10 days or so. Not just that I won’t be checking them, I literally will not have them. So if you want to get in touch with me, try my parents or just wait until the 23rd. I’ll share everything when I get back. Maybe not everything but you know. Speaking of sharing. . .
2. For everyone who wants to know all about life at Wheaton and how I’m doing: I plan on keeping up this blog instead of sending mass emails or calling every person who asks. Key word being, of course, planning. I hope that I can share encouraging but my real life to everyone who is earnestly loving and praying for me. The email subscription thing on the sidebar is a great way to do that, since I won’t post every entry to Facebook. It is my desire to improve my connectedness and loyalty in college with frequent calls, texts, emails, and blog updates, but we’ll see. . .
3. For everyone who has loved me so well: please know how grateful and humbled I am. I can’t wait for the Lord to show each of you in Heaven the specific things you’ve said and done that impacted me. No one knows all the things I hold onto – the times people pray for me, what they say about me, the wise counsel they give me. These past 18 years, more specifically the past 3 1/2 have challenged me and grown me in ways I never could have expected. And beyond learning, I never expected to have as much fun as I have. My life has been a testimony of the love and grace of God, but it has also been a picture of His joy. And if you’ve ever been intentional with me, loved me, prayed for me, encouraged me, you have been invaluable as a conduit for the Lord’s blessing. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
If you want to know how I’m feeling right now, I feel like a smoothie. It’s like someone took every emotion a person can have and has thrown them all into a blender and sometime between last night and this morning turned the intense mixing on. I am more excited than I’ve ever been about college. I am so confident in the work of the Lord in me and at Wheaton. I know that I know it is where I am supposed to be and Jesus will be faithful in that. I am a little sad about leaving home, a little nervous about meeting new people, a little contemplative about everything people have said to me this past week, very grateful, overwhelmingly blessed, a little anxious about seeing what this new season holds. . .I’m feeling everything.
And you know what? It’s good.